BRIEF: A collection of static and animated digital art reflecting on love, longing, and existential loneliness. A self-exploration of the feminine form; an introspective odyssey upon the digital seas only touching briefly the sensual shores of the real world.
BACKGROUND: For millennia the feminine form has been appropriated, commodified, objectified, and curated for the male gaze.
Today, unconditional acceptance of feminine bodies remains an act of radical self-love and still carries risk of violence in a deeply misogynist culture. The luxury of safe self-expression is elusive; only further complicated by age, color, creed, sex, gender, ability, sexuality, and class. Whether it be in real or digital spaces, feminine bodies are treated with a spectrum of toxic hostile reactions from self-appointed patriarchal enforcers who take it upon themselves to steal joy, love, life, and happiness from any female (sex or gendered) persons that exercise their self-sovereignty in public or private; real or digital spaces. Despite the culture of terror, the feminine aspect of humanity is asserting herself and sisters are embodying in their power.
The Technology Revolution has democratized digital mediums for self expression and communication; opening up new vistas of imagination and self-discovery unconstrained by historical precedents and unbound by so-called consensus reality. Just as our innate curiosity leads us to launch telescopes into the space, we are intrinsically fascinated by our own faces. Our mirror neurons can’t tell the difference between another person and our reflection. It's true; monkey see, monkey do.
While my identity is not secret, how I represent myself in my work employs both mystery & impermanence to emphasize the meta-commentary on identity and self-reflection. Because even to ourselves we are yet unknown. Grasping at our own images from the outside; and feeling our way through the labyrinth of our subconscious on the inside; still waters run deep; few test the depths. That is until COVID imposed seclusion and introspection upon the world.
PROCESS: When company is scarce to come by, I find comfort in my reflection. Years of practice has made it easy to love the person I see shining back at me in the mirror. My essence is reflected in these quiet moments of solitude. Bathed in light — I capture my feelings as photographic images using an iPhone 12 ProMax. As I play, I refine my composition, lighting, and postures to match my energetic vision in the moment. Once the images have been captured, I edit using Procreate glitch and liquefaction distortions; and adjust colors to translate a once mundane setting into a surreal fluid landscape of dissolving scenery — preserving just enough un-retouched skin to communicate the transcendent essence of each moment and the vulnerable beauty of the human body; of the feminine corporeal form.
INQUIRY: When the last grain of dust settles on the digital frontier what will the real world look and feel like? Will NFB’s (non-fungible-beings) and their fleshy forms be treasured or despised? Will the real world lay in rubble? Does a world still reeling from the pandemic return to desperately pressing flesh against flesh; or will glass, silicone, and electricity be the sole comforts accessible to those inside of a deepening dystopian nightmare?
What does love, intimacy, and vulnerability look and feel like in the future? How does it feel in the present? Will the essential need of skin to skin contact between human beings drive our species to create teleportation devices out of sheer desperation? As HD gives way to 4K, 6K, 8K, Augmented Reality, and Virtual Reality, how far can we ,and will we, push ourselves across the world; across the universe — at the speed of light — in search of love?
ABOUT THE ARTIST: I am called Carolyn Marie. I am a self-taught digital arts alchemist, writer, and poet working with photography, collage, photo-manipulation, graphic design, animation, video, and sound to create meditative light-art-work to OPEN SPACE for transcendence + healing - in the moment.
I am inspired by the vast mystery in which we reside at the collision of people, machines, fantasy, and dreams. In my work I am attempting to translate intuitively, to transform alchemically, and to work deeply with consciousness; un, super, cosmic, and collective. I am cultivating magic in the mundane and witnessing the divine in the profane. I am a surreal abstraction waking within an infinite dream; waking to share with the world what I have seen.
“Hot, Hot, Hot!” represents a new stylistic direction in my creative journey as I step into the art as both subject and artist. My art career is just beginning, but I can already I feel the work calling me to come and play; I have more ideas than hours of the day. I practice my crafts and play creatively every day. I am interested in digital art, crypto, and NFT’s.